Giano: Viewing the world

shattered, broken, voices unheard now spoken. . .

what lays, now rests, fury and rain, are all regressed. . .

I write these now, written as sheets creases the surface. . .

how i wish we Only get to see a tomorrow.

and yet, we always do. and we wish for the same..

and we go back to what we always was, always will be..

2nd VMDC results iloilo city.
XU made waves
3rd Breaking Team - XU-A (gian,rene)
4th Breaking Team - XU-B (zed,kat)

TOP 10 best speakers
3rd Best Speaker - Gian
7th Best Speaker - Rene
10th Best Speaker - Zed

TOP 5 Adjudicators
3rd BEST - Greaco

Semi-finalist
XU-A & XU-B

STAND AND DELIVER!

ONE "BIGGER" FIGHT!!!!

I just had a magnificent tournament experience. although, I’d be hypocritical to say i didn’t feel bad , of course i did, in a way. we were so close. Semis. and i was feeling the intensity of all of our speeches. Sad to say, only two teams get to proceed to the finals. and as luck would yet again have it. XU-A was not part of it.

flashback, VisMin was a great tournament. one of the most competitive regional tournaments ive been to this date. Its always nice to compete against great debate teams across visayas and mindanao, some of whom i have developed good friendships with already. Im proud of the debaters that ive crossed wits with during the eliminations and the final series.

kudos to henry my friend. He ran a solid campaign to the championship. during the eliminations, i witnessed great(punishing) speeches from him on rounds 3 and 5. and of course the championship. hats off. im glad he won VMDC. although i would have wanted to have gotten a shot at it as well though. hehe

on side notes, i really cant forget SU-B(clyde and micah) man, those dudes were amazing, although we met in a couple of rounds during the elims, Im proud to have bowed out to them during the semis, sad to say yet again. but they ran a solid campaign as well. kudos to clyde. your really good.

and so thats it. i guess VMDC is over. i really wanted to be in that championship match. I guess in another perspective this turn isn’t mine yet to take. I must still keep faith. i must still work on continuously improving myself. in a couple of weeks i will quest to get that shot at a title.

I believe its the turning of the leaves. Greatness is upon the next turn.

ive blogged the last pidc 2007. and i think my theme was typically re-invention, the all mighty call for improvement. this time, i bear notes of progress and frustration, for one we have improved our record, XU-A this time around came out significantly stronger with a 4-3 record, sad to say we were the top 18th team, technically the 19th since a non breaking team is included. I think assessment wise i have to look at first holistically, then move to individual assessment.

First id like to start with the holistic experience, PIDC 2008 was one of my "troubled tournaments" mentally, why? for one I had so many things to think about, my team ( which isn’t really an excuse, i mean its about what i thought at that time ) arvin ( our whip ) had a bit of a confidence issue( turns out later he scored the highest amongst us. ) zed (our PM) who really feels pidc as his unliked tournament, and of course me, the usual fluctuations, juggling of the psyche. anyway, given those conditions, we actually pulled through and gave ourselves a good shot at breaking finally to a final series. unfortunately the dice just didn’t roll for us. we fell short of one win to have qualified.

Second, Individually, i think i want to just concentrate on my growth. frankly my mindset right now has been about national and perhaps international competitions, i feel that i haven’t gotten that level of confidence that i should be carrying after years of debating in mindanao tournaments, perhaps, there is this Mental wall, which i actually believe there is, that i should be breaking apart. so what i did since Pidc 2007 was collect my speaker scores, assess them after each tournament. everything’s not bad news, Im the type of person that believes in perseverance, i personally believe that my ultimate talent in debating is my passion to persevere and continue to be interested in growth and learning, i think there is no end as long as opportunities are still there. going back, after three national tournaments i have significantly increased my speakership averages to 3 per tournament, its a process that really makes me look forward to the lengths of improvement.

In this i really am grateful to the people in the debate community that have not dropped the faith in my passion to improve, Im not the most talented speaker, i think i have no skills of accident, my mentors, (apay and chinky.. well apay especially ) i think i am really wearing this responsibility of becoming better for the debate organization, I know i still havent really delivered, but i wont stop, i believe good things come to those who continue to believe, my partners( jedyl, jim, zed, arvin and rene) one way or another you have taught me the values of debating alien to workshops and trainings, My peers and friends ( jaymee, rupert and candy ) thank you guys for your sacrifices, dont give up, you will soon get there ill see you through it. my parcel mentors and which i treat as Icons and Friends ( Sharms and Leloy ) you guys are an inspiration, i still remember the conversations and im looking forward to atleast more of it before you can really part ways, you guys introduced me to higher levels of debating, Im not there yet, but i will be soon.

"sob" Im Excited, Exhilarated and Challenged at the many more  groups, individuals and competitions that may help me grow, technically, im still young in the National Scene, there is no room to give up.

See You in Future Tournaments, and I Hope to keep writing more "progressive" materials  after this.

the 17th MPDC was my tournament of closure, Sad to say, it didnt end up to how i would have wanted it to end up, i cant recant blessings, to the very least i was given the chance once again to debate amongst the best debaters of Mindanao, its been a wonderful 5 years of MPDC (amazingly 5 ) and id be hypocritical to say i would have wanted to be recognized as Champion. i dont know, some might say that my skill as an individual debater has never been questioned ( sometimes ) but its an itching feeling to know you went so far and got close to it so many times (3 Runner-ups) and even (3 2nd best speaker awards) its bittersweet to know you came far but you just couldnt nail it.

nevertheless i am thankful to the people who i was with in the past, and the people that joined me in a close of my MPDC days. im still in the process of sharpening my skill, i always look at progress as continuing and limitless, i hope other tournaments offer the same if not better brand of what the MPDC has meant to me. thank you for introducing me to a career i enjoy, to an identity i truly embrace, and a passion i will be carrying onwards.

the 1st MDC was a relief, after struggling the previous year from fluctuating performances ( Square OFF, NDC ) i must say the training we had with sharms and lel proved fruitful, all the insight, the tips, the exchanges, they’ve definitely borrowed down to the sub-conscious and given us a better handling at how we look at debates.

sometimes, its not wise to overthink, i had a notion before that if i could just handle the principle behind my speech i could well transform it to better ones, truth is, i think its not at all about understanding but more of feeling, not being too conscious, and just letting Passion run through your intuition, im still no good, i refuse to stop here..

and as luck would find it, i am pushed to even greater lengths, we reached the Finals, beat really good teams along the way ( which is in no way an affirmation, it just means we had a little bit of luck, and perhaps we wanted it more ) but still fell short of my 1st….

sigh… i dont agree with curses… but i sure dont find it funny to be striking out close 3 times… geesh..

ehehe..

well… i hope the next tournament gives me another chance..

as with every debate, there are no guarantees, only the resolve to never surrender.

seems to me as if everything would have been done,
in a whim we pass moments we thought would never cross,
such decisions we make affect only ourselves,

but in the same light, it affected the world we made,
if guilt is not recourse, and to second guess this journey is insane,
then perhaps i have grown crazy,

i yearn for you i with all my spirit, clutch me and shelter me,
for when we measure love, we measure our own, and we feel unworthy
this i beg, to keep faith even in the utmost loss of it.

hi guys, i am here expressing.. lamenting actually, of my( quote this is person of me-myself and i) dismal performance during the 9th NDC,

saw the tabs. this is quite depressing, getting low scores during the 7day eliminations and fluctuating now and then. i guess it was a troublesome NDC, so many things in mind. i was not as focused as i should have been, and any other excuse i should be dispensing out like bad adjudicators( YOU Know who you are!!!) hehe. and depressingly slow paced rounds.. but Good Lord, i am not doing justice.

I can actually just say. i did not do really well. *sigh* i guess there are a lot of things i have to consider and prepare for the next time around ( which is quite soon) number one, is to prepare and train. this is not an excuse, but a resolution, i guess the next time i consider competing i have to make sure that im prepared in all aspects.

evidently the pains of debating and competing is you are measured by your last debate, and in this case, the last competition. i ranked low, not that i can barely gage myself, but i was sure i could have done so much more. for one we did not break and qualify, which is quite painful. i understand that my partner had expectations that were not met, and its quite sad that i could not come up with anything to make things better for us.

right now i am seriously blaming myself, and contemplating if i could ever still grow as a debater. i hope the next time around i can bring the "A" game in debate, and i hope i can do well and improve, as a debater, as a partner and as a person.

Godbless the next competitions and ill see the next NDC with an optimistic outlook.

zed and i won our square off match, i was so happy. time flew once we were awarded winners, i got best speaker award while zed was voted by a get this, a whopping 86% as texters choice, *mind you im suspecting the numbers close to a hundred thousands.*

it was such a hit, the square off match brought attention to the school and attention to the org, and most especially attention to both me and zed.

winning the OCTOFINAL MATCH. because its still like 2 more qualifiers before that MAIN EVENT, felt really good. to have been able to represent the school, make your parents, friends, classmates, relatives, titos&titas, girlfriend so proud of you. it was more than rewarding.

then Come MPDC. i wasnt expecting much. i just really would have wanted to win. fastforward, XU-C me and Jim broke 4th over-all out 44 teams, and proceeded to the Grand Finals where we met, XU-B zed and arvin, ADDU C karla and kristine (Break buddies, we were matched since round 3 of the eliminations.) ADDU B Marj and Sam.

Fortunately-Unfortunately again, for the Second Finals Appearance, and the Second Time in a row. me and jim came up short handed. ADDU B gets to be Champions, and i go home as part of the Second Best Team(i,e RUNNER-UP) for that final round.

my debate career is great, and collectively XU has shown one the most brilliant performances of its debate existence, and im proud to be part of that formation.

it could have been better, but paths are made by ourselves.

ill do better next time, i believe i am still not at my best debate form. Hopefully, through determination and Hardwork, it comes out soon.

wish me and zed luck for the QUARTER FINAL MATCH on Square OFF against La Salle UNiversity.

i hope i can go to the NDC.

and by the extent of what i can do.

ill finally be a CHAMPION come MPDC-IIT!

kudos to the better debaters that i met. kudos to those who won it.

i Lament. [a sad stuff i just wrote off the bat]