i was flippant (and some degrading adjectives) from NDC 2007
October 28, 2007
hi guys, i am here expressing.. lamenting actually, of my( quote this is person of me-myself and i) dismal performance during the 9th NDC,
saw the tabs. this is quite depressing, getting low scores during the 7day eliminations and fluctuating now and then. i guess it was a troublesome NDC, so many things in mind. i was not as focused as i should have been, and any other excuse i should be dispensing out like bad adjudicators( YOU Know who you are!!!) hehe. and depressingly slow paced rounds.. but Good Lord, i am not doing justice.
I can actually just say. i did not do really well. *sigh* i guess there are a lot of things i have to consider and prepare for the next time around ( which is quite soon) number one, is to prepare and train. this is not an excuse, but a resolution, i guess the next time i consider competing i have to make sure that im prepared in all aspects.
evidently the pains of debating and competing is you are measured by your last debate, and in this case, the last competition. i ranked low, not that i can barely gage myself, but i was sure i could have done so much more. for one we did not break and qualify, which is quite painful. i understand that my partner had expectations that were not met, and its quite sad that i could not come up with anything to make things better for us.
right now i am seriously blaming myself, and contemplating if i could ever still grow as a debater. i hope the next time around i can bring the "A" game in debate, and i hope i can do well and improve, as a debater, as a partner and as a person.
Godbless the next competitions and ill see the next NDC with an optimistic outlook. 
