Giano: Viewing the world

the title is open ended i guess, im happy and at the same moment sad..

sometimes i think, or i make myself think that i dont risk my pride during these competitions, i mean i seldom do in every other activity.

but i might be fooling myself.

debating is something, or maybe the onething that i think i can be good at,
and not just because you tally it in the speakership scores, but its the onething i guess that brings me great joy in doing.

and i cant do that if i dont risk my pride in it.

and finally, after numerous mpdc’s, for the first time. to the very least. i couldnt even qualify for the quarters.

*sigh* i tried to rationalize my circumstance… but in all other considerations, the painful reality was straight forward. Sorry to say, everything i did, wasnt enough..

finally, after years of competing. i took things seriously. and i regretted not ever doing it before.

there was a time, or it had always been that i only debated to compete. qualifying for the breaks was that goal. being in the top 10 was paramount. but most of all, losing was pretty much ok. as long as i had fun…

ironic, but during that 15th in spc.. things sinked in too slow.. a facade of smiles.. darn it had to hurt..

winning is everything…

and from this moment on.. no promises.. no words to rationalize..

winning will be everything.

and to debate with all heart will be paramount.

if i do that, if the circle does that.. that we debate with all heart.. then we cannot lose..

Congratulations for ADZU A for winning the 15th.

to the rest of the mpdu. hope to see you in XU for the 16th..

"This is your opportunity to rise from these ashes and grab glory!"

happy month of hearts i guess, its been some time since i last posted, hmmm.. this semester is turning out to be hectic but rewarding, i guess i only have a few minor problems with my academics, nothing that cant be relieved easily.

but the days are starting to get more pressure packed, i have an upcoming immersion for devcom this week, and plus getting ready for 14, i dont know. i just want that day to be special for us. hehe.. me being the uber cheesy.. hope she appreciates it. and yes a week after 14 would be mindanao parliamentary debate championships again. hmm.. no goals yet, some of the members are graduating(hopefully) and i think a good parting finale would be that coveted trophy. hehe.. anyway, as for me. i would still go through this in the same "gian" fashion, how is that? well expect the worst, hope for something, but never pin it. just go out there have fun. and enjoy surigao.. hehe.

hmm.. its nice to be happy..